missing Gramps...

Missing Gramps today.. and everyday, but especially today.

This morning while I was doing my devotional I started reading thru my journal. I came upon entries that I wrote right before my Gramps passed away. If you know me well you know that I was extremely close with him. We were two peas in a pod. I had always been close with him but the Summer of 2004 was the beginning of a closer relationship with him.

I moved to Grants Pass to help him take care of my Gram. She had colon cancer and we wanted her to be comfortable so we got Hospice so she could stay home. It was the hardest 6 months of my life but the best. Being able to spend that time with two people that influenced my life so much was one of the greatest blessings. My Gram passed away December of 2004. Words cannot describe the pain my heart felt that morning and days, weeks and months to come BUT being able to be with my Gramps thru it, words cannot describe how thankful I am to have been able to spend that time with him. I lived with my Gramps til August of 2005 when I transfered to Corban College. SO.. there is some background info..

Here's a few entries from my journal...

"I asked him, "You believe in Jesus right?! He said, Yes honey. Then I started talking about memories, saying we're two peas in a pod. He laughed. Then I asked him, 'Gramps, what are you thinking about? He said, You. You are beautiful. Then he held my hand for awhile, looking at me.".....I think that is all I can do right now..

I miss him a lot but I love thinking about him and telling others about him. I wish more than anything that him and Gram could have met Reagan. Before Gramps passed away I told him, I might be pregnant Gramps and if I am we will name the baby after you. (Hoping it's a boy) =) A month later I found out I was pregnant. We gave Reagan the same middle name as him, Paul. Which my dad and brother both have as a middle name too..

I miss him so much. We talked everyday so somedays are just harder than others. Today is one of those days that I want to call him and hear his voice. He was a quiet man but spoke his mind and had a great sense of humor. So thankful for ALL the memories I have of him and Gram.

"Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted." Matthew 5:4

time seems to fly by...

time seems to fly by...

Where does the time go?! Our sweet little boy will be 8 months old next Sunday. Seems like just yesterday we were going to the hospital in anticipation of Reagan Paul coming into this world. I had no idea that our life would change so much, and in such an incredible way. He is more than we ever dreamed of. We thank the Lord everyday for Reagan and the blessing he is to us.

We started this blog about a year and a half ago, but that is all we did, start it. So now I am going to start it back up! Mostly for family and friends far away, but close by friends can follow this too =) Thought this would be a fun way to update our family and friends on life and new adventures at the Marshall home.

This picture of Reagan was taken when he was 6 months old. It was taken by Bethany Haile. She is a talented photographer in the area and we are blessed to know her. Next month she will be taking Reagan's 9 month pictures! Seriously, where has the time gone?! Just yesterday he was born, right?! Well, that is what it feels like. But I am LOVING this age. He is learning, interacting, laughing, making lots of noises and just being our sweet little boy. Thank you Lord, again, for our little bean.